|I was 25 in this photo, In my 2nd year|
at Uof T.
On Tuesday, I started telling a bit of my background story. You can read it here if you already haven't. I'm sharing my past with you to give you an idea about what a life long struggle obesity has been for me. I have lost a lot of weight in the past, and I have gained a lot of weight as well. I have tried many, many diets...Weight Watchers, Dr. Bernstein, Atkins, South Beach, cabbage soup diet just to name a few. I've taken diet medications...Phen Fen, Meridia and Xenical. Phen Fen and Meridia were taken off the market due to life threatening side effects.
I've starved myself and was even bulimic for a period of time in my late teens. I have never shared the fact that I was bulimic with anyone before. It's how I kept my weight around 200 during that period in my life. I have always felt a lot of shame in association with the bulimia. I was able to stop doing it on my own, mostly because my mother figured out what I was up to and confronted me. Even with all my efforts and intervention in the past, I have never been able to lose weight in a healthy manner and keep it off. I"m determined to finally get off the crazy diet merry-go-round!
|During a trip to Cuba. I'm not sure of the year. |
Possibly when I was in Centennial.
|During the same trip to Cuba. This has to be one of the |
only pictures taken of me in a bathing suit.
I started gaining a substantial amount of weight in my first year at Centennial College. I still lived at home and was working part-time to put myself through school. I started Centennial when I was 21 years old. I don't have many pictures of myself from that time period, because I hated having my picture taken. After gaining so much weight, I pretty much stayed away from the camera. I made a lot of friends from Centennial, some that I still stay in touch with today. It was an overall good experience for me. I was passionate about school and excited about my future working as a Child and Youth Worker.
When I was 24, I began working on my Bachelor of Arts degree at the University of Toronto. My weight continued to balloon. I didn't really make any friends in university. I just showed up to lectures, did the work and left. I actually couldn't tell you the name of one person in any of my classes, in fact the whole experience is a bit of a blur. I know I graduated though, because I have the degree to prove it. All I can say for certain is that at the beginning of university, I gained a lot more weight and weighed over 300 pounds by my 2nd year. I started using Phen Fen in third year and lost about 30 pounds by the time I graduated.
|This is my mother and I at my University|
of Toronto graduation in 1997. I was 27.
|I was 23 or 24 here.|
|My father, mother and I at a|
wedding. I was 23ish.
|One day old. I'm tired and scared to death!|